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Wednesday, 18 March 2009

  • the onslaught of posts

    is because i just imported a bunch of them from my real blog.

    xanga is a cock.

  • ulla ulla ulla ulla swedish movie

    I’m watching Let The Right One In. It’s some Swedish movie about a kid and his vampire friend.

    As morbid as the film is I actually find it kind of sweet. It reminds me of when I was twelve and would have daydreams about falling in love and getting a girlfriend - although the girl was never a vampire who murdered people.

    Now everything is different and murky and boring and a significant other seems more like a chore than anything else. I don’t know what I have to look forward to anymore.

    Update – I just finished it and it was an excellent ending and a great film all around. Except there was a shot of a twelve year old’s vagina which was sort of unsettling.

    Second update – Apparently I wasn’t paying close enough attention. The girl didn’t have a vagina; it was a scar and she’s actually a boy. I really shouldn’t have gone to IMDB. They totally fucked this movie up for me.

  • ajlllllllllllkjh

    I’ve been taking too much Valium lately. It’s making my sleep schedule crazy. I went to bed at five in the morning last night and woke up at ten, did a bunch of yard work, meandered around on the Internet for a couple of hours then went back to sleep at around five in the afternoon and stayed asleep until 11:30 at night.

    What’s someone supposed to do at 11:30?

    I drove half an hour to Dorchester and bought a coffee then drove back home. It’s a really nice little town. It stretches along this nice little river and most of the houses are old and cool looking. I could see myself living there. It’s also so peaceful when you drive around when the world is sleeping. Your high beams on, going as fast as you want because no OPP officer would waste his/her time on such a desolate road waiting for speeders. No traffic to get in your way. It’s a really beautiful experience.

    If I had more money and my own car I probably would’ve just kept driving east until I hit PEI. I just want to drive wherever. Life is dull and boring here but that may only be because I don’t make an effort.

    I can’t decide whether I like being depressed or the fake happiness that Celexa brings more.

    It feels like I’m living a lie when I take those pills.

    I don’t know. Maybe I like being miserable.

    Also, I wish a cute, intelligent girl would message me on plentyoffish but I’m pretty sure that 95% of the women on there are as shallow as I am and that certainly doesn’t bode well for me.

  • COMBO

    Portishead and valium is a good mix.

    Jason Molina as well.

    Song of the Road is one of my current favourites. I suggest you check it out. Here, I’ll even help you lazy fucks.



    I don’t have any money.

    I had Chinese food tonight and got some lucky numbers from my fortune cookie. I bought a lottery ticket and lost. The Chinese are clearly worthless.

    I owe around $3,000. If anyone has 3 g’s lying around please feel free to send it to me.

    I doubled my anti-depressants so I’ve been feeling better lately. For a couple days there it was pretty bad. I kept imagining putting up my chin-up bar in my closet and strapping a rope to it.

    I think I’m over that – for now anyways.

    I never imagined that I’d live this long so now I’m befuddled as to the next step. It was all supposed to end a long time ago but here I am with the clock tick tick ticking away indefinitely.

    Google is being completely random in terms of what parts of my site get indexed properly. I go from almost two hundred hits a day (which is measly I know) to around thirty. It’s depressing and annoying but I’ve started not to worry about it. I need a way to draw new visitors to this site but I’m coming up blank. If anyone has any ideas let me know.

    It certainly won’t be my ideas or lack thereof. The lyrics do really well and actually make me a bit of money but it’s not enough. Best case scenario would be getting paid a hundred and fifty or so per month. Instead I’m getting that every three months or so and Visa is relentless with their interest.

    Fuck.

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